This time last month I received news that my Social Security Disability Claim had been denied again, I was crumbling in spiritual faith. Why would God not grant me something that I desperately needed in my life, did God even exist, so many questions filled my head. A good friend of mine whom is also a Pastor received my text message about my questions. He immediately responded and it was in that phone call I was awakened and realized it wasn’t God’s fault at all, it was my fault. Talk about putting pride aside and realizing when you are actually wrong about something.
Just when I feel peace in my life and that everything is heading into a positive direction, again we are forced with a life altering event. We are to relocate by July 1st because my brothers landlord found out we had been seeking shelter in his basement. Last month I would have been devastated by such news, and it is because I had righted my heart and reached out to God, heard his answers, and began to lead my family into the spiritual light, that today I am not afraid.
(Mat 24:21 KJV) For then shall be great tribulation, such as was not since the beginning of the world to this time, no, nor ever shall be.
While the above verse is actually speaking of war, this here relates to the my situation because to me I’m at war. War with The Devil, he’s lurking about and trying to stir up chaos as I’m building a spiritual foundation for my family. It’s also interesting to note that the Websters Bible Dictionary States:
TRIBULA’TION, n. [L. tribulo, to thrash, to beat.] Severe affliction; distresses of life; vexations. In Scripture, it often denotes the troubles and distresses which proceed from persecution.
So yes this is a tribulation, while there is no lynch mob gunning for my family, we are still in a spiritual war. This time however I’ve got ammunition (God’s Word) to battle back with, and I’m much strong than I was one month ago.
To the person whom for lack of words ratted this information out to bring harm towards us, I forgive you. I hold no anger in my heart towards you, and this is just a door that God will close to open a new one for my family.
(Eph 4:31 KJV) Let all bitterness, and wrath, and anger, and clamour, and evil speaking, be put away from you, with all malice:
(Eph 4:32 KJV) And be ye kind one to another, tenderhearted, forgiving one another, even as God for Christ’s sake hath forgiven you.
Last month I would have probably acted out in anger and could have made the situation a whole lot uglier. Grace be to God for opening my heart and allowing me to forgive, for opening my eyes to allow me to see our adversary (The Devil) lurking around, and for the strength I need to face this tribulation.